Is This The End?
Yesterday Seems So Far Away
*Azelia´s P.O.V.*
I still remember that afternoon; it started raining as soon as they were all out of my room, after they´d left me ´safe´ at home. The last voice I heard were Chuck and David telling me they loved me. David left me his childhood cuddly zebra toy, while Chuck got me another of those pretty necklaces; he gave me a couple of necklaces all through our relationship… but he said that one was special. I really miss them and it’s been 3 years already… funny, they remained 3 years… Oh, how much I yearn for them...
Frank is in a new band with some guys he met and is out on a mini tour now… Gee and Oksana left for New York for a better education on art and crap… I´m all alone again… Damn, life gets harder.
Time goes by really fast, I mean, I´m 17 now… I still remember when I was 13 and blushed every time Chuck kissed my cheek, ´cause he did too, it was funny; or when I turned 14 and Chuck started being jealous of every guy that only walked by my side… I´m lucky to have at least my memories, and still smile at them… But, when he left, when they left… I felt so empty and so goddamn depressed… I´ve missed David so much, he was like my brother and I loved love him so very much, I also miss Seb and Pierre and Jeff…
We were just kids, but still… I never had better friends than them. At the moment I´m with no friends at all; I only tend to hang out with a teacher as weird as that might sound to you, he´s pretty cool, he used to be our English teacher back then… He´s nice enough though; when the guys left I still had Frank, Gee and Oksana for a while, but they couldn’t, right?
Frank writes to me often, asking how I am, and if I´ve met any new friends… I just lie and tell him not to worry, ´everything´s alright´. He still has a crush on me, I guess, he´s had a 1 or 2 girlfriends in these past years, but I don’t know… Gee tells me he´s just distracting himself from me, I don’t like that. I don’t love him that way, I really don’t… I hope he finds someone much better than me for him and forgets all about me, we even gave it try, it didn’t work and it won’t ever work…
So… as for myself, I come to the library every day after school and just read or find something to entertain myself. I mostly write stuff or play guitar on weekends while my dad hangs at the bar, I go out to walk to the park at night so I don’t find myself at home when he gets there, always avoiding him.
“Hey there.” I looked up from my book, which I wasn’t really reading, I was thinking, remembering. Mr. Rob was there, the teacher I´d told about…
“Hey, teacher.”
“Hi, student. How are you?”
“I´ve been worse…” Every day is awful for me.
“I see… Can I ask you something?”
“You just did…” I grinned.
“Something else” He chuckled, I´d copied him that one.
“Sure…”
“Well, is just that… you´re always so sad and you know… is this all about Chuck?” My heart skipped a beat after naming my lovely friend, I was thinking about a few seconds ago.
“You know it is… but not only about him; about all of them, they all left! Now I´m alone and it has been years now! I can’t give up on them, I just can’t… I want to… but it seems impossible.” I gave my poor excuse.
“Calm down.” He chuckled. “I know, I know it isn’t easy; you were very united, weren’t you?” I nodded as a tear hunted to fall. “It´s ok; I bet you´ll find them again in your pad… I don’t know, but I feel you were made for each other…”
“Who are you talking about? Chuck?” I washed the tear away with my thumb.
“Not really…” I stared at him puzzled. “Forget it. So… my cousin and I were going to a concert, but I can’t go with him anymore ´cause I got to check these week´s exams… I was wondering if you wanted to go with him. He´s nice and he´s 20… Maybe you could go…? We got the tickets… so it would be a waste… He doesn’t want to go by himself, and I thought you´d like to go…” He talked fast. Is he inviting me to a concert with his cousin? “It´s a Green Day concert…” Well, didn’t he know my obsession for them…?
“Uh… I, I don’t know… I mean, I don’t know your cousin and it could get odd… Besides, don’t you think it can be annoying for him?”
“Of course not. I told him I´d get him some company, and you´re a good companion. He´s got no Green Day fans/friends…” Just like me, except that I ain´t got no friends… at all.
“I… well; I love Green Day, but it´s just odd to go to a concert with a guy I´ve never even seen before…”
“Oh, c´mon, you´ll like him. You can even get to be friends!” That´s what it was all about, he wanted to get me friends…
“Look, this is very kind of you, but-“
“No buts, now you´re going.” He ordered.
“Uh… Don’t I have a word on this?”
“So, he´ll pick you up on Saturday. Some when around 5pm… ok?” I guess I don’t.
“Ok…” I finally accepted the fact he wouldn’t give up.
“It might be dark by that hour, so get yourself a coat.” Did he want to get me a friend or a boyfriend? Man, this is odd. “You´ll have fun, you´ll see. By the way… it´ll be at New York so… you probably will get home late, no problem, right?”
“I guess not…”
“Alright, it´s all set. You got backstage too.” Wait. Replay that!
“What?”
“You´ll meet the band.”
“Holysh…”
“Don’t say it.”
“What? I was going to say… holysh… holyshark… nothing less.” He laughed.
“You´re weird, but you know what? I like that.” He stood up. “Can I give you a ride home?”
“No, thanks, I´ll just stick around…”
“Sure… well, see you around.” He hugged me goodbye and walked away.
What did just happen? He got me a date with his cousin… shite…
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I still remember that afternoon; it started raining as soon as they were all out of my room, after they´d left me ´safe´ at home. The last voice I heard were Chuck and David telling me they loved me. David left me his childhood cuddly zebra toy, while Chuck got me another of those pretty necklaces; he gave me a couple of necklaces all through our relationship… but he said that one was special. I really miss them and it’s been 3 years already… funny, they remained 3 years… Oh, how much I yearn for them...
Frank is in a new band with some guys he met and is out on a mini tour now… Gee and Oksana left for New York for a better education on art and crap… I´m all alone again… Damn, life gets harder.
Time goes by really fast, I mean, I´m 17 now… I still remember when I was 13 and blushed every time Chuck kissed my cheek, ´cause he did too, it was funny; or when I turned 14 and Chuck started being jealous of every guy that only walked by my side… I´m lucky to have at least my memories, and still smile at them… But, when he left, when they left… I felt so empty and so goddamn depressed… I´ve missed David so much, he was like my brother and I loved love him so very much, I also miss Seb and Pierre and Jeff…
We were just kids, but still… I never had better friends than them. At the moment I´m with no friends at all; I only tend to hang out with a teacher as weird as that might sound to you, he´s pretty cool, he used to be our English teacher back then… He´s nice enough though; when the guys left I still had Frank, Gee and Oksana for a while, but they couldn’t, right?
Frank writes to me often, asking how I am, and if I´ve met any new friends… I just lie and tell him not to worry, ´everything´s alright´. He still has a crush on me, I guess, he´s had a 1 or 2 girlfriends in these past years, but I don’t know… Gee tells me he´s just distracting himself from me, I don’t like that. I don’t love him that way, I really don’t… I hope he finds someone much better than me for him and forgets all about me, we even gave it try, it didn’t work and it won’t ever work…
So… as for myself, I come to the library every day after school and just read or find something to entertain myself. I mostly write stuff or play guitar on weekends while my dad hangs at the bar, I go out to walk to the park at night so I don’t find myself at home when he gets there, always avoiding him.
“Hey there.” I looked up from my book, which I wasn’t really reading, I was thinking, remembering. Mr. Rob was there, the teacher I´d told about…
“Hey, teacher.”
“Hi, student. How are you?”
“I´ve been worse…” Every day is awful for me.
“I see… Can I ask you something?”
“You just did…” I grinned.
“Something else” He chuckled, I´d copied him that one.
“Sure…”
“Well, is just that… you´re always so sad and you know… is this all about Chuck?” My heart skipped a beat after naming my lovely friend, I was thinking about a few seconds ago.
“You know it is… but not only about him; about all of them, they all left! Now I´m alone and it has been years now! I can’t give up on them, I just can’t… I want to… but it seems impossible.” I gave my poor excuse.
“Calm down.” He chuckled. “I know, I know it isn’t easy; you were very united, weren’t you?” I nodded as a tear hunted to fall. “It´s ok; I bet you´ll find them again in your pad… I don’t know, but I feel you were made for each other…”
“Who are you talking about? Chuck?” I washed the tear away with my thumb.
“Not really…” I stared at him puzzled. “Forget it. So… my cousin and I were going to a concert, but I can’t go with him anymore ´cause I got to check these week´s exams… I was wondering if you wanted to go with him. He´s nice and he´s 20… Maybe you could go…? We got the tickets… so it would be a waste… He doesn’t want to go by himself, and I thought you´d like to go…” He talked fast. Is he inviting me to a concert with his cousin? “It´s a Green Day concert…” Well, didn’t he know my obsession for them…?
“Uh… I, I don’t know… I mean, I don’t know your cousin and it could get odd… Besides, don’t you think it can be annoying for him?”
“Of course not. I told him I´d get him some company, and you´re a good companion. He´s got no Green Day fans/friends…” Just like me, except that I ain´t got no friends… at all.
“I… well; I love Green Day, but it´s just odd to go to a concert with a guy I´ve never even seen before…”
“Oh, c´mon, you´ll like him. You can even get to be friends!” That´s what it was all about, he wanted to get me friends…
“Look, this is very kind of you, but-“
“No buts, now you´re going.” He ordered.
“Uh… Don’t I have a word on this?”
“So, he´ll pick you up on Saturday. Some when around 5pm… ok?” I guess I don’t.
“Ok…” I finally accepted the fact he wouldn’t give up.
“It might be dark by that hour, so get yourself a coat.” Did he want to get me a friend or a boyfriend? Man, this is odd. “You´ll have fun, you´ll see. By the way… it´ll be at New York so… you probably will get home late, no problem, right?”
“I guess not…”
“Alright, it´s all set. You got backstage too.” Wait. Replay that!
“What?”
“You´ll meet the band.”
“Holysh…”
“Don’t say it.”
“What? I was going to say… holysh… holyshark… nothing less.” He laughed.
“You´re weird, but you know what? I like that.” He stood up. “Can I give you a ride home?”
“No, thanks, I´ll just stick around…”
“Sure… well, see you around.” He hugged me goodbye and walked away.
What did just happen? He got me a date with his cousin… shite…
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