Peanut Butter Toast.

I'll tell you all what's been annoying me lately.
Those people who have no consideration for other people, and who honestly think they are the best things to happen on earth. They're so self absorbed, spoilt, bratty, and they think the world revolves around them. No body likes them. They can call themselves popular, but everyone knows it's only because they put out and boys like them. If sleeping with a man whore three years older than me is the only way to become 'popular' like they think they are, then it's no wonder no one wants to be like them. they think they've go it all. People don't like them, they like the fact that they can either get you invited somewhere, or provide the best gossip. Who doesn't like hearing who the neighborhood whore is? I can guarantee you it's on of these people who think they are so good looking and so well liked.

I mean we've all seen Mean Girls and the truth is, the cool people of a school normally just a bunch of self absorbed brats who live under the impression that they are cool but the truth is no one actually likes them. I mean my friends are the coolest people I know, but not in a weird superficial way. When I say "cool" I dont mean the party kids, or the super hot people. They aren't fucked up in the head. they don't think the world revolves around them.
I am so sick of the school hierarchy. It's not like these people are really popular. They just sleep around and bitch about each other. It pisses me off so much. they are not better than everyone else, and they will never be better than anyone. They're shallow, self conceited, plastic people who are so worried about impressing they're friends and staying in their cool group that they don't have their own minds.

Another thing, don't you just love it when people think they know the whole story and are so cocky they use their "facts" against you and claim its because they are your friends? Well i don't. if you have nothing nice or helpful to say SHUT UP. I am so sick of people claiming to know more than me just because they think they know things first or 'have connections'. All this crap they claim to know is fake, and it doesn't gain respect in my books. I know more about everyone in my school than they do, and i'm not bragging, but i hear things. I guess you could say i have associates in pretty much every group at school, so i find things out before other people. I just don't go around blabbing it to the world to gain credibility or status.

Ok, so whats the deal? why are some people so awful. logically they're either dumb or insecure. I wonder if the care free image they work so hard to maintian is just covering for the little kid who is scared that they will fail, become unpopular and become invisable. They mustn't be as confident as they act, and they must be avery very small minded people if they think they will be considered cool forever. One day little kids have to grow up, and clearly they will be an awful adults..
And also, insults only work if the person your insulting respects you.
ANother thing i'm sick of are my friends. They're great people, they just get on my nerves so much. Two fo them act like their in love, doing evrything together. I have no issue with them being best friends, but making fun of us and completely ditching us when they're around each other is not cool.
Also, when they think they are the coolest people on earth because they get invited to a party. Honestly, one party out of a whole years worths, and they freak out, acting like they do it all the time, when in fact, everyone knows they don't. Im not saying i go to every party, but i know why people don't ask me. My friends don't get invited because they're over the top, freaks who think they're popular when someone with the tiniest bit of credibility talks to them. I don't get invited because people know i don't give a fuck about them. They know i don't like them, and they know how cold i am around people who i don't like. They also know majority of the time i wont accept their invitations because i don't like them. I know it's wrong to be writing all this stuff, but really, at least i know why people don't like me. It's because im a cold bitch. My friends pretend they get invited tons of places, when i know they dont.
Even when they do get invited places, they manage to embarrass themselves. The other day we were at a party (one with no alcohol, may i add.) and they were total noobs. They danced literally the whole time, and it was a costume party, and they were wearing the most ridiculous things. I understand dancing for a little bit, but the whole time is just lame. And truthfully, dancing is only fun when everyone's a bit tipsy. No one was drunk, and they didn't want to drink alcohol before the party, because they didn't want the girl who was having the party to be pissed off at them. Yeah, they cared more about keeping some shitty friend who totally ditched our group for the popular kids than they did about having fun.
Ahh, i could go on for hours about how much people in my life piss me off, but i won't, i'll stop now before i give myself more bad karma.
But i want to say i can't stand any of it anymore. My close friends care more about getting popular than they do about keeping their real friends, and the other people i associate me have started to ditch me. I guess im kind of hurt by it all, but then i remember how i'll be leaving them all in two years when i leave school. I know it's wrong, but i can not wait untill i leave and show all these tools who think they're better than me how far above them i am.
I sound so stuck up, but i'm trying to vent and to get my point across.
So i don't think this made sense, but let's hope this wasn't a challenge for you, yeah?

:)

P.S, i'll probably post another chapter of my life soon, but this one's long enough for now.