Safe In My Shadows

I'm standing here in the dark, just staring. Staring out into the black that seems to consume my body whole, my mind alive. I'm stuck here...I don't know what to do anymore. What am I even supposed to do anymore? I don't know why I'm here, why I'm alive, why I ever belonged here in the first place. All that I know is that something isn't right anymore. Something is missing, gone, lost. I don't even know what that is. I just feel so alone, like nobody else even knows, even cares that I'm crying out for help and nobody...nobody's listening anymore.

Everyone's got their own problems now. There isn't enough time to ask the girl in the shadows, ask her why she's there. Why she's not in the sun, having fun with the rest of the girls her age. No one has enough time to notice the tears running down her cheeks, the silent sobs that make her shake and want to cry out in pain, even though she can't. She stays in her cold, dark shadows, alone, because that's where she think she belongs. The rest of the world can't see her in the pitch, reality can't find her in the perpetual darkness she calls home. It's quiet there, away from the crying and screaming and rage of her real life. She's safe in her darkness, away from the rest of her life.

I'm safe in my darkness.